||[Aug. 27th, 2004|01:01 am]
Just saw A LITTLE PRINCESS at TheatreWorks, which is trying the show out for a hopeful Broadway run! I had a great time, and the opening number, "Let Your Heart Be Your Compass", and "Captain Crewe" moved me so much...so I won't say anything more, bad or good, than that. Because if I can be moved like that at least 3 times it's pointless to blab about it really. But I did write a review of sorts and posted it on a message board. For people who care more about the nitty gritty's. As a Bay Area resident there are many who wish they were in my place right now just to be able to see this show before it hits Broadway. Anyway.|
There's something depressing about going to shows for me. Even good ones. Actually, especially good ones. I just leave wanting to get up there and SING! And to be amazing like every single performer was tonight. Flawless voices, amazing dance skills. It's frustrating I guess. I just wanna BE THERE already, but I have a lot of hard work ahead of me. But ya, it's a lot like the feeling I would get leaving the movies when I used to go more...like I would always leave the movies kinda depressed that my life couldn't be as exciting as that or as perfect as that, and that once the credits started rolling I became no longer a part of that movie world but just a bum who had sat on his ass in the dark for the last couple hours doing nothing and now had to go home to his boring room and his boring life and go to sleep. It's kinda sad really. But of course while it's happening it's entertaining, and that's the whole idea of entertainment. And don't get me wrong I absolutely LOVE going to the theatre, especially Broadway tours and stuff. If the show is really good I'm usually more excited than depressed...but I think the fact that these were mostly local people tonight who are Broadway calibre was more depressing. And I sat so close (4th row) and could just totally see them and I've seen them on stage around here multiple times and even worked on shows with at least one (CJ on Dreamgirls). And reading the bios how some of them have done shows at the places I do shows (SJCMT, PACT, etc.), it just makes me think "wow, that could be me up there then" and it's just so CLOSE but UNATTAINABLE. Baaa.
Unattainable yet, anyway. But like there's a Mitty freshman girl who is in a professional show prior to BROADWAY. That's just, wow.
Anyway, enough artistic frustration.
O how about sexual frustration? Hahaha. So I'm just realizing now that the guy sitting behind me, who I asked if he was on staff from the way he was talking to another guy about technical stuff, was probably the composer Andrew Lippa's boyfriend. He was sitting alone in the audience, but then I saw him kissing this guy at intermission, and now I see Andrew Lippa's picture in my program and realize that might have been him. And when I asked if he was on staff he joked "no, I just follow the composer around" and he and his friend laughed. I thought he was joking about being the composer's assistant. Assistant with benefits it would seem, hahaha. Dunno how that relates to MY sexual frustration necessarily though. Anyway.
And it was cool, they still had the staff table set up in the back with the creative team sitting there...and I think the lady who I saw in person there was the very same Tony-nominated lady who directed things like Sweeney Todd on BROADWAY. And there she is just sitting in the back of the theatre at a makeshift table/desk just like all the other directors I've worked with. And then I sit in front of the composer's assistant/boyfriend who is observing the final preview performance. I dunno it just makes me see how even if it's a "Broadway" production, it's not overseen by God Himself or anything, it's just normal people putting on a production just like we do in the community around here. They just have more money and location location location...i.e. BROADWAY. The word Broadway has become such a huge thing, going so far as to define the type of thing it is...musical theatre...which in reality is like calling tissues Kleenex. Kleenex is the brand, not the product. Anyway, I've just been thinking...Broadway is just a place with regular shows, they just happen to be the best known place for drawing the most talent and the most professionalism. Anyway I dunno if this makes sense anywhere but in my head, what I'm slowly realizing here. Just like going to the PIRATES world premiere made me really see how movie stars are just regular people...I know that sounds silly and cliche, but I think you gotta be around them to really realize it. They have regular jobs...they just happen to pay get paid a lot, and their work is known to more people. That's all that seperates them. It'd be like, if the world was super interested in microwaves...Joe Smith who goes to work every day at GE and designs a cool microwave would be stalked by papparazzi for candid shots of him filling his car with gas for Microwave Weekly. But it happens that more people are interested in movies than microwaves. Anyway I'm really tired and not making sense anymore. Anymore? Hahaha. I can't even coherently end this so um...the end.